She Speaks Studio 2018
Day 1 – What an amazing experience that started with an intense time of prayer. The two ladies that led the time of prayer are truly anointed in their speaking and praying. They, in turn, had the participants anoint each other and pray over each other. It was a truly moving experience.
Today I met a new believer who was immediately called to ministry, a new momma trying to juggle a career and baby while figuring out time for ministry, a grieving momma who just lost her 24 year old son to cancer, a single momma who has been called to minister to other single mommas, another Jesus girl that lives in my metro area and is on staff at a large church in the area, and many other wonderful Jesus girls – all who have an amazing story.
And guess what?!? We ALL felt out of our comfort zone. I’m not alone!
But I already knew this. God is with me in this crazy adventure and I am never alone. But, of course, reminders from His Word are helpful.
Boy did He remind me the morning I would be hopping on a plane to come here. I could feel my nerves fraying as I woke around 4:30am (hello, time change!). I kept repeating to myself over and over “I am not equipped for this – what am I doing?!?”
It just so happened I started a new bible study this Monday morning. It’s a study on the book of Jeremiah called “Great and Hidden Things” by Proverbs 31 Ministries.
As I was questioning God again why I ever thought it would be a great idea to go to a writer/speaker/platform building conference, He gave me Jeremiah 1. Whoa. Imagine you are about to embark on something you have never in your wildest dreams imagined and go read Jeremiah 1. I’ll wait.
Talk about mind-blowing. And comforting at the same time. Particularly verses 7 – 9.
7But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.
9 Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth.
Alright, I’m going. I’ll go to this conference with no fear.
Back up to Sunday and I had even more confirmation. My pastor preached on one of my favorite passages – 2 Timothy chapter 1. I’ve embraced this chapter since February of this year – right before I embarked on this ministry journey. It was at another women’s conference (IF: Gathering 2018) when I finally understood the spirit of fear and how it was holding me back. As I travel this journey, I am receiving the spirit of POWER, LOVE, and SELF-DISCIPLINE instead of fear. God has promised these things, and I accept them. Especially when it comes to my spiritual, emotional, and physical journey to great health to serve Him.
Finally today, speaker Suzie Eller shared another confirming scripture for all of us. Truly amazing description of Peter and John as ordinary men. Just like all the women in the room. Ordinary, unschooled men – but they had been with Jesus. Just like all the women in the room. Jesus girls walking with Him in spirit.
13 When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished, and they took note that these men had been with Jesus.
So, I guess it’s okay I’m an unequipped, unschooled, ordinary Jesus girl. Actually, it’s more than okay. It’s my honor and a blessing God has called me here. I’m stepping into His view of who I am. And through all of this I will continue to embrace, share, and Choose Joy!